September
16/10/25, 12:37
HEY… so i forgot about these…. lets all ignore its already october 16th okay. its not like theres much for me to talk about but i cant believe i failed to commit to the routine of writing a blog at the end of every month SO quickly lmfao this may not be for me
my life has been pretty okay all things considered. im still helping out my mom at work and tbh its been helping me quite a bit. i do get frustrated at everything i still cant do but i guess i just have to remind myself more often of how far ive come.and also that its a process obviously and that its not necessarily linear. i wonder if talking about my social anxiety disorder here will get tiring soon lmfao sorry i try and i dont really like discussing it much but its like. a huge part of my life obviously. so i cant really go into a proper recap of the month without at least touching on the subject
anyway! lately i got a bit back into drawing. not sure if i talked about this in the last entry but ive having a really fucked up art block i even thought for a bit i may be losing interest on drawing as a whole. thank GOD that was not the case! just needed a bit of a break i think. i also think it may be a consequence of posting online. i absolutely love sharing my art and obviously like every other artist ever (i hope) i want a bit of recognition lol i think its only human. but the thing is i always end up unconsciously prioritizing that over actually enjoying what im drawing. i get really stressed out when i run out of ideas or i simply cant draw whats on my mind and it always ends up casusing these looongg periods of inactivity that frustrate me a lot because i have nothing to share! its an awful cycle LOL im trying my best to break out of it… i dont want to stop sharing my art thats kind of the issue. and having no one see it is often disheartening. i wish i didnt care about stuff like that but thats the truth LOL
getting back into old interests helps ive found. a bit embarrassing to admit to anyone irl but ive been drawing a shitload of sonic fanart (uno siempre vuelve a donde fue feliz, supongo) and tbh i cant believe how much it has helped lmfaoo i think it may be the fact i find mobians stupid easy to sketch and pose and stuff. i still struggle when it comes to cleaning up those sketches dont get me wrong but i dont need to spend an hour on pinterest to find a proper reference so i dont get nearly as burnt out
i didnt take any pictures during the entirety of september ?!?? can you believe it. i didnt find anything interesting enough to actually photograph apparently wow. im struggling to remember anything that happened this month because pictures are usually the way i keep track of everything
i guess one of the “highs” of the months was getting a couple of CDs as a gift. but they're burnt ones with no case… i wasnt exactly disappointed or anything im very thankful they thought of me but also. i have no idea how theyre actually playing? genuinely i dont think ive ever seen cds as scratched as these ones. how can people keep them with no case no pouch no sleeve no nothing? just sitting there on the shelf. insane. anyway its not really music im into, the only band i like from the ones i got is Bon Jovi but turns out the disc only has their SLOW songs can you believe it…. how do people listen to 15 slow bon jovi songs in a row without falling asleep i cant fathom. why would you do that to yourself okay whatever. still grateful i SWEAR i just really like complaining everytime i write one of these. or anytime honestly
well i think thats about it for personal stuff it has been a very uneventful month. as per usual. either way i know october (or rather whats left of it) will be even more uneventful because thats how octobers always are. when i was a kid i use to HATE this month so bad because not only does it disrupt the -ember ending months (-embre in spanish) which made me forget it existed every single time but also genuinely NOTHING happens during the entirety of the month. everytime i talk about this someone says “well what about halloween”DOESNT COUNT ive been living in small argentinian towns for the entirety of my life what makes you think anyone cares about that here!!!!! ive only met like 3 people in my entire life that liked halloween and they were all 12. also its on the LAST day of the month how does that even count. okay im done with my october rant i think i still hate it
HOPEFULLY next month will be a bit more interesting since i have a couple of people visiting. first a friend of mine is staying for a couple of weeks (thats what he says i know him and i know he'll be occupying my house for the entirety of the month maybe even longer. and will eat all my food and ill hate him by the end of it <- not really) and also my grandma and uncle are visiting so thats fun i think…. i think…. also my aunt may come as well jesus thats a lot of people now that ive written it down. lets hope itll be fun and not extremely exhausting lol
lastly…. my favorites of the month
artist/band: CASIOPEA i think. ive listened to their first two albums and yeah theyre incredible LOL ive been trying to get a bit into jazz and related genres and failing because i find it hard to get out of my comfort zone but. theyre good they're really good i think it was a really nice starting point
movie: The Howling 1981. i had a short werewolf phase at the start of the month and was interested in seeing a bunch of movies but tbh i only watched two im a fraud. anyway i liked it a lot! the practical effects are incredible and the story is quite solid (i liked the ending). still not my favorite werewolf movie since An American Werewolf in London is undeniably the best no i will not hear any other opinion but i still liked it a lot! i do think it may have been missing the whole emotional side that a werewolf story usually has and i couldnt connect or care much about the characters but overall its a solid horror movie. if you like werewolves or 80s horror id recommend
tv show: The Twilight Zone 100% i havent finished it yet but wow dude it has been SO fun so far and also it makes me think a lot after every episode. i really like it when a series does that. i can also see myself bringing this show up in conversation very often in the future its just the type of show that lets you say “oh theres actually an episode about this” and i LOVE that i love being annoying
book: i didnt read AGAINNN this is so embarrassinggf as i said on my previous entry i ran out of physical books. dont have money to buy and also theres no proper library in my town can you guys believe that……
okay thats about it for september. hopefully ill remember to write october on time? not promising anything