gave up on naming these after months
09/07/26, 13:17
hello…. havent written one of these in a while haha… im very inconsistent sorry. i actually enjoy this little writing exercise its a good way to keep practicing my english but i cant bring myself to ever sit down and do it it seems lol. although to be honest that has been the case with this entire site. im a bit stuck i think? like theres nothing i want to keep editing or adding to anymore. i was going through all my pages earlier today and thought about retiring the media page because apparently i dont feel like updating it ever but i realized id straight up have to retire the entire site because i havent been updating it like at all. sometimes i add new art or edit my collections but thats about it. not sure what to do about it yet… i feel like im pretty much done with it. ive considered making a new one from scratch but i dont think theres much of a point to that i think id get bored of it half way through LOL and even then i wouldnt want to abandon everything ive done up to this point. idk ill have to think more about what the future of this site is… its not going anywhere anytime soon thats for sure im too attached but its definitely something i have to think about
much to my dismay ive been hanging around other bigger social medias much more often… fully aware i probably shouldnt but i cant help myself okay im sorry. should probably take a break too because with the whole world cup thing i keep having to read these really stupid takes LOL but whatever feliz dia de la independencia argentina!
another common topic in these entries is usually art i think. i had a pretty good run of jojo fanart for whatever reason but i think the fixation is over which is LAME because im in one of those terrible in between periods where i feel like theres no point to doing anything. its awful and i hate it. and therefore i also havent been drawing much…
i think ive talked about this before but whenever i post my stuff on more popular social medias i feel weirdly pressured to keep drawing whatever is doing well. which is fine when im still interested on it but whenever the obsession fades it feels terrible LOL that probably means i should step away from platforms like that but i dontknowwwwww the instant gratification… and most importantly having people actually see your art is so satisfactory… and get feedback on it n stuff…. but i probably should stop posting for a bit tbh i need to go back to drawing for myself
on personal stuff not much, same as ever. working a bit and slowly getting better at it. both of my friends (yes i have only two) moved away for college (?) which is lame but they're visiting for the winter holidays so thats cool. unfortunately not at the same time LOL but whatever im spending a week with each.
went to a cafe for the first time in forever earlier this week it was pretty fun. new place opened near my house and its really nice. i struggle a lot with eating outside and my anxiety had convinced me i was going to have a terrible time and die or something but it was actually okay. i tend to forget how important it is to have these types of “challenges” i guess when dealing with severe social anxiety
other unimportant stuff ive been experimenting more with clothes and presentation. i think ive been unknowingly (or not?) staying too much in my comfort zone or perhaps trying to go by unnoticed so ive been kind of. dressing like shit for the past 19 years of my life. so im trying to dress a bit better/how i actually want to dress because it helps with my confidence is what im trying to say. its hard and i feel like im doing too much most of the time but at the end of the day im doing it for myself so whatever
also completely unrelated ive been watching a lot of movies lately. been doing a sort of movie watch party ?? with a friend every saturday for a few weeks now thats been fun its nice to get back into film after months of barely watching anything. i would still like to get back into books and shows and other media though thats something i need to work on
i think thats about it for this entry… the monthly gimmick is def not working so i guess ill just update here whenever i have anything to tell. i think i end up thinking nothing is worth writing an entire entry about so i end either not telling anyone OR writing a unnecessarily long post on my microblog which kind of defeats the point and could straight up be a normal blog entry LMFAO i dont know why i do that
favorites of the… now… i guess…..
artist/band: i havent been listening to a lot of “new” music lately ive been staying a lot in my comfort zone i guess. i did find a rather obscure (?) spanish 80s band which i really liked so lets say Platino this time around. really liked La señal.
movie: ive been watching so many stupid movies lately and rewatching a lot of my favorites so the only one that really comes to mind is Cronenberg's Dead Ringers which was pretty cool. also watched Scanners for the first time and it kind of disappointed me a bit but its a solid movie. or at least entertaining…? i would have liked a better performance from the protagonist
tv show: only show ive started since writing the last entry (which was like 8 months ago mind you) is Revolutionary Girl Utena but ive barely watched any episodes i think im in the black rose arc right now so no solid opinions on anything yet but so far ive been enjoying it
book: only thing i read was Crónica de una muerte anunciada by Gabriel García Márquez and i thought it was great. dont know why it took me this long to get to it ive read quite a bit from this author and was somehow missing one of his most famous stories lol
okayy im done thank you… see you next time. whenever that may be