August
30/08/25, 13:30
ive been wanting to go back to writing a bit about myself and my life lately on this site because i keep forgetting its supposed to be about me LOL sharing things about myself and sitting down to write these is SO scary im always afraid ill end up spiraling and getting overly negative and absolutely ruining my own mood. but i think its nice to sit down and evaluate everything that has been going on for me lately sometimes idk…. and i want this site to be a bit more personal because i feel like ive been pretty detached from it these past few months.
anyway, as per usual not much. ive talked about my current situation a few days ago on my microblog but haven't gone into much detail. honestly i dont know if i want to go into much detail right now either
social anxiety is still kicking my ass on a day to day basis BUT i can confidently say im getting a bit better. i have to remind myself very often that this is a process and that i have to take my time… but sometimes i take too much time, so i decided a month or so ago to help out my mom at her store so that id get the chance to push myself to interact socially and also get out of the house a bit. it has had its ups and downs but overall it has been a pleasant experience. i can see some improvements (not much, but some) and also to be completely honest it has me feeling less guilty LOL so thats a nice bonus
august has been pretty normal besides that. in terms of friendships i had a friend visit me for almost the entirety of july and GOD i love him but i was tired. i was scared id be a bit burnt out and end up isolating a lot after that so i think ””working”” was the right call. i did spend almost the entirety of the month just hanging out with my mom (jesus that sounds so lame when writing it down) which does get a bit tiring at times but overall it was fun. i say “almost” because i did hang out with another friend yesterday. she found a bunch of old cassettes in her attic and asked me if i had anything to play them. i didnt but turns out my mom found a cd + cassette player on facebook marketplace so i bought it on a whim. we had to take a bus to pick it up which was scary as hell ngl but i did it!!! and i have my awesome cd player. shes visiting later today to play her cassettes so i guess it counts as two separate hang outs. oh also we went to a piano concert yesterday it was pretty nice. the chairs were so uncomfortable and my back hurt like hell afterwards but besides that i had a good time
on whats coming next month… im not sure. most likely ill keep helping out at work and ill see from there. my brothers birthday is coming up and i already gave him his gift (because he wanted to, otherwise id have waited) but im actually pretty excited to see what his friends get him. idk why but ive always have been more excited for other peoples birthdays instead of my own. i usually just get money which isnt very fun. i mean its awesome dont get me wrong i love money i much prefer getting money over gifts i dont like and am very much grateful that im getting any gift at all but my celebrations are always sooo lame so i imagine my brothers birthday gifts/party are going to be much more fun LOL
okay anyway i want to add a brand new section to these posts so ill actually get excited about writing them instead of dreading it: favorites of the month. lets all pretend this isnt the only personal blog entry i have up on my site rn and this is actually a new section
my favorite ___ this month is…
artist/band: spandau ballet!!! ive been getting REALLY into the band lately and “Gold” plays in my head all day its embarrassing. favorite album so far is Parade
movie: knives out i think. i havent watched much this month but knives out was SO fun i really liked it. i had been procrastinating watching it for months but i finally did and loved it
tv show: the residence definitely. first time in like months i sat down and paid complete attention to a show wow it was sososo fun i loved that the protagonist is a birder!
book: i didnt read anything im adding this for future entries which is LAME im sorry i havent been in a reading mood lately. i read everything i physically own already and reading digitally sucks so bad i cant bring myself to do it. but i also cant spend any more money on books ive already bought an embarrassing amount of sherlock holmes editions. favorite from last month was la casa de los espiritus by isabel allende though. incredible book
another new section here are my favorite pics i took this month. i dont usually take a lot of pictures so this should be brief
had a sleepover at a friends house (had forgotten about this) and her cat chose ME... awesome
same friend lent me her DC comic books this panel is from a justice league one. dont remember which one but it was fun
tried my best to figure out how to use this 70 year old sewing machine and failed. who would have guessed. cool experience though
took the worst ever picture of two brown-hooded gulls
my new cd player :-)
thats it goodbye until next month (hopefully)